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You know I adore them! But I wish they wouldn't be so predictable all the time. I almost pray when I talk to what I think is a nice one, please God, let this one break the pattern. Even if I only speak to him for fifteen minutes, let him be different. Roxanne said, 'I understand what you're saying. At least to break the monotony.' But it's more than that, Roxy. It's that I want to continue to have high expectations of them, at least as high as I have of myself. The world would be a better place then.' Sharlena walks back into the room, after leaving to make a coffee in the kitchen. 'You know that you can never tell this young man what you do - or any of them.' I know. It's not as if we're falling in love or anything, but I don't know. If we weren't I couldn't give up work. If only he would understand that I have to work and that for me it's just work. But once you become 'their interest,' they don't get it. They expect you to give up two grand a week for them, while they complain about the price of a drink they were going to shout you but didn't. Or he forgot his wallet. I guess they're not that stupid. The job is complex and there's always the potential for intimacy and enjoyment of sex with the clients. Samantha smirks after thinking about how many times she hasn't had to fake an orgasm. 'That's the facts, darlings! A lot of the time I'm enjoying myself!' 'Yeah,' said Jackie, 'they find that hard to cope with. I guess I would too, if I was straight enough and stupid enough to go out with a male escort. The trouble starts when they think they've hooked you emotionally. That's when they take you for granted and it's a downward spiral from there on. Sex is just the same as money. It's all about power.' I'm so lonely. But you know even if I got hurt again it would be worth the risk. In some ways I was pleased I could still be hurt. Imagine someone who was unable to be hurt. Just think about all the other things they would be missing out on. I want to be with him again out in the open to cuddle and kiss. What does it take to get a bit of affection in this world or just a bit of love? It's pouring out of me like rain. 'Well sweetheart,' said Jackie, 'it takes you to open your legs and fuck him good and rotten.'
Roxanne speaks: Jackie said, 'You see, it's an exchange. Today, that short tubby guy built like a pudding paid you for what he wanted. But this time you, the girl with the lonely heart, pay this guy in sex for what you want, which is love. It's all business in the end.' When you take the compassion out of it, the primary motivation becomes what someone can get for what they can give. Jackie said, 'If you want to get some, make sure you give it to him good. And don't let him think that you want too much too fast or he'll withhold it. That's his only power, sweetheart.' When you are a sex worker your love is like rain, and you got the whole dry and hungry earth at your fingertips, waiting to pay you just to drink. The marriage vows stipulate that the couple must remain faithful. But who can be faithful based on sex if there's no faith anywhere else? For most men I've met, marriage is a friendship and sex is like eating. Sex is to be fully present to cock and fully present to cunt. No matter what you are sending into the endless space of the heart, the genitals are secretly working away, exchanging muscle movement and juices, even when at rest. Jackie added, 'and in the case of a hooker, just a slathering of lubricant.'
If you are loving, you will satisfy your partner's body, but this could just as easily be achieved through a massage if they are alive to touch. If you are loving you will be considerate but not responsible to your partner's needs, just like what a good sex worker will do for her client, because to her a man is not just a wallet, he is a complex human being. Even when he is dragged away by the tide of his own cock into the blue lagoon. The American sailor can blah on about connection with the soul all he wants to and he'll probably blah it until the day he dies and on that day as well. But the universe isn't talkin' back to his pathetic attachment. Finally he is all old and creepy, but this time your genitals are all used up by mother nature or at least a sex worker if she's any good. Hey, mature gents are welcome and I'm very discreet. The earth wants your cock, your ball bag and your cunt and we know that some of you won't willingly hand it over, at least not without a little fight. Sharlena added, 'Mother earth is the ultimate industry and if you wanna feel good, then you can pay for it, honey.' Love is something lost, not even interplanetary and we don't know where it comes from or even if it's suitable for 'round here. One thing we do know is that men taking off after the fucking is done is a good thing. It keeps the children strong and healthy, since a lot of fathers will kill their spouse or fuck their offspring. |
