85. as the monster gradually manifests, i describe it to my counsellor
the air directly before me is colour coded black, as the monster gradually manifests, i describe it to my counsellor, it's embryonic, it doesn't speak but stirs & shuffles as it moves behind me, it is big, a fat retarded bald man or a slug, it is slow & non-violent, but it suffocates, repulsive rather than frightening, it has no real mind which will allow me to communicate with it, all it wants to do is eat, it is forever moving up behind me, to feed from me quietly, but that is nothing compared to its best friend, the one with a bobcat's head, & wings, a real fire-breather, receptive to radio signals & muted messages, an obscene & nasty chuckler, that lives in a cavern inside my mind, it says 'you should have been dead a long time ago', then it went quiet, nothing stirred inside me, it was all empty, until the next one came, counsellor i know this sounds a bit silly, should i go on? |
