81. the short-lived peace that revenge brings, like bricks through plate glass windows
i hadn't been given an opportunity to express my rage, after having been unfairly pushed & pushed, then left to snap on my own, i either had to express it or turn it in on myself, i'm frightened of the damage that's being done, i cried angrily in a big park but it wasn't enough, i clobbered a bean bag but that was just play acting, i've just got to hurt the person who caused it, i want them to feel my pain so that they won't do it again, i've just got to express it, & when i did finally express it, it was brilliant, weak, childish, out of control, low in a way but brilliant, & it was short-lived, the peace that revenge brought, but the relief, the absolute relief, like bricks through plate glass windows, for at least those few hours, was worth it, i strongly recommend a swift clean cut, a calculated & outrageous revenge, there's nothing like it |
