Other things had also been happening to people's computers in my presence that seemed unusual. Once a friend was about to send an email regarding having some of her deceased brother's poetry published in my ezine. She emailed me to say that the email had 'sent itself' without her touching anything. I said, "Perhaps it just means that he is keen to be published."
Another time I was intending to invest a small amount of money in a cheap block of land in Batchelor, in order to start an Animal Centre. The real estate agent complained about not being able to get through. The agent said that when he had called my number, he had been greeted with 'a religious message'. The day that I drove out to their office in order to arrange an inspection, all their computers had broken down.
Sometimes I wondered if these 'other selves', that existed alongside the entities, weren't now beginning to physically manifest their own thoughts into the external environment, without my conscious awareness. People always said to 'be careful what you wish for', but within a system of multiple consciousness, this becomes a little more complex and so discipline is required. I was exercising and testing the psyche.
I had not been happy about the negative things happening to people. The only thing that I could think to do was to ask the universe to not harm anyone on my behalf no matter what they did, or how angry or fearful I felt. I asked them not to protect me if it meant harming others. But then I got the answer that it wasn't me and that these people were doing it to themselves.
I was satisfied with the answer. I can have no control of what people attempt to do to me, but for some odd reason it backfires on them. It's as if what they do to me they do to themselves. I had started to get teary on the phone, because thinking that I was doing everything with my mind for so long, had caused me to start to take responsibility for the actions of others. I wondered why this stuff was happening to me, since I hadn't been predating on anyone. But I knew that I wasn't being 'punished' by anything. I was simply being 'educated' by them in the same way that they were being 'educated' by me. We were all inadvertently assisting one other to gain knowledge.
Joan told me that anything that happened to other people was 'part of their learning process' and that it had nothing to do with me. I concluded that it would be better for their 'learning' if they didn't attempt to predate on me, upon which I was reminded, once again, that everything in the universe is unfolding just as it should be. This phonecall left me feeling relieved. While I was not part of The Spiritualist Church, I had really just needed to talk with someone who had experienced what I had and who understood what I was going through.
While I would prefer to live in a world where this kind of 'education' was unnecessary, the sad fact was that I didn't live in that kind of world, at least not yet. So the sooner I became wise to the situation, the sooner these two-way lessons would stop. I knew what kind of world I understood, so that was the kind of world that I would continue to strive towards creating, both by my intentions and my actions. But now I would do so with awareness. I also understood that what I thought and how those thoughts were directed was very important to this process, since they were obviously manifesting in the physical world.
