83. falling through the safety nets, into more & more stars
when i'm hurt, i project it into the whole wide world & become very downloading, the catastrophic crush of all the pain of existence is inside me, it's all gone crazily out of proportion, to think i give him that mighty power, but he is the trigger for this greater pain, that is holding onto the doorknob of a giant agony, hours of wet sobs jarring through my wooden body, fueled by the fear of letting go, because ultimately i know, that there is nothing to catch me, in this cold & expansive condition, no kind & loving arms reaching out from the immensity below, i get a grip on myself time after time, falling through the safety nets, into more & more stars |
