73. i'm feeling disappointed, a little hurt inside
i don't want to fight back, to wrestle with it, sometimes i just want to die, i'm feeling disappointed, a little hurt inside, why do we give evil this power?, because we are too frightened to do anything about it, fuck it!, i'm dealing with the people who are deliberately trying to destroy the world for their own gain, it's like in cartoons where the villain is chuckling with the prospect of controlling the universe, at least they are defeated at the end of each cartoon, but they're always back for the next episode, it's a perpetual struggle against evil, my greatest fear is of being destroyed in the process, wrestle with evil too closely for too long & you are likely to be dragged under with it to drown, sometimes innocence can be a good thing, like treading water & not knowing the depth of it, the deeper i know it is, the harder i think i've got to swim, i'm exhausted already, tired of not breathing in, i take responsibility for my own part in it, but i will not take yours |
