2. i couldn't find my feelings, i looked everywhere for them
i couldn't find my feelings, i looked everywhere for them, under the lounge & in the coffee cup, i was surprised when i found them again & showed them to you, then i was just as surprised when i lost them again, i don't know where they go, i begin to doubt whether i had any in the first place, then when i am hurting, i can't wait to lose them again, but each time i lose them it's always a shock, each time i find them & each time i lose them, i wonder about them, are they like a set of car keys, that you are always frightened of misplacing?, like you look everywhere for them & then just when you stop looking, why there they are, right in front of you?, or are they something that you look for in a department store & can't afford to have, but wish you could have them anyway?, but i think feelings are as big & blue as a season, & when i lose them it's like the world turns on its axis into hibernation, & it is such a monstrous turning that nothing can wake them up again, nothing less than the sun itself, if only i had faith in the movement of the earth, but i'm lost in the dark freeze & it's always so sudden, like suddenly the sun is on my teeth, as i emanate brightly without caring, this is my good-bye to you |
