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GUNS, DEAD GOATS & MY BLACK HEART
1. Black Heart
a razor back piglet, was strung up by the hind legs in my aunty's
loungeroom, my cousin troy had killed it & had pierced its nose with
a hook, i slid the hook back through its skin, like a needle from a
black cotton reel, i put it down on the soft carpet, then a joy came
to life in my hands, soon i was gladly carrying the piglet around with
me, i called it my 'black heart', now we are living together, he
rushes from room to room on his stiff back legs, bum up, tail
circling & flicking in excitement, when i sleep he snuggles in close to
me, i use his small razor back as a pillow to rest my head, he's very
careful with his little tusks that are slowly emerging into a facial
unit, at other times he goes to sleep across my stomach, he is so
light our breathing synchronises, so we breathe together for awhile
& then we breathe apart, our gentle moving lungs backing each
other up, he is so happy that he has life, we eat cornflakes together
in the morning, his eating is so sloppy that he makes me look good
in front of visitors, during the day we go about our separate
business, he has jumped straight into the house of my heart, when i
wake up, the sun has hit the pillow of the next bright day & we are
in love with each other, the razorback walks with me, stands directly
in my footsteps & looks out of my eyes, he puts his little black heart
into the world that was unsuccessful at his annihilation, i give a
wink & blow a kiss to stupidity & evil, my footsteps are cloven, my
head is in heaven, together we are the guardians of all razorbacks,
at 7.00 p.m. i bend down to clean his tusks with herbal toothpaste,
he goes out & roots for dandelions in the overgrown garden, for a
cup of hot green tea in the lamp lit evening, i shake dirt off the
roots into the kitchen sink, we enjoy the same music, at this stage
it's all fairly domestic, the adventure is within, but i am intensely
happy, i eat my food in a sloppy way, have developed sensitive skin,
will squeal & kick if disturbed, walk jauntily with a twinkle in my eye |
