47. Mum knew She Was Over-Doing It
"I knew the factory was closing down.
I just wanted to get as much $$$$$$$
as I could get, to buy the townhouse.
Worked for 8 months. 16 hours every Friday night.
12 hour shifts during the day.
3.30 to 3.30. 2 Duromine once a week.
Sometimes more, just tired & going off my head
I supposed, just stressed, stretched to the limit & surviving.
A hallucinating feeling. Too $$$$ oriented.
Too work oriented, saving every cent I was.
It paid off in the end, but I made myself a bit old
& sick & a few more veins in the legs
& maybe a few more wounds but it was worth it.
Mostly I was $$$$ oriented, high as a kite, all shivery.
The next day, hyped up.
Forced myself to go to bed for 2 or 3 hours, shaking.
Get up at 12.00, caffeine, black tea.
Run around & do more work, then I'd start to get a bit
tired around 1.00pm.
On the Sunday, all sore & aching joints because
of overworking & overdoing it on the Saturday,
not knowing I was doing it. Just tired
& going off my head, I suppose.
Knew the factory was closing down.
Just needed the extra $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$." |
