Equipment Consists Of - Each individual must possess a separate playing space of the confused & tortured psyche. Note: Physical isolation & suppressed emotion of the individual is to his/her advantage. Secondly, it is the responsibility of the individual player to possess his/her own tools of abuse according to the rules of the game. Sharp or pointed utensils are prefered; however a player may resort to using his/her own hands, fingernails, wristwatches, bracelets, teeth, etc, if so desired. The object of the game is to lose as much blood as possible, whilst maintaining a minimal degree of mental awareness.
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blood. 1. a reddish fluid in vertebrates that is pumped by the heart through the arteries & veins, supplies tissues with nutrients, oxygen, etc & removes waste products. 2. bloodshed, esp. when resulting in murder. 3. the guilt of responsibility for killing or injuring (esp. in the phrase 'to have blood on one's hands'). 4. life itself. lifeblood. 5. a. relationship of being through the same family, race or kin, kinship, esp. that between a parent & child. b. in one's blood. as a natural or inherited characteristic or talent. 7. temperament; disposition; temper. 8. the sensual or carnal nature of man. 9. bad blood. hatred; ill feeling. 10. have or get one's blood up. to be or cause to be angry or inflamed. 11. in cold blood. a. cruelly & ruthlessly. b. deliberately & calmly. 12. make one's blood boil. to cause to be angry or indignant. 13. make one's blood run cold. to fill with horror. 14. to initiate (a person) to war.
To Start The Game - Place the tools of contact against the skin, or playing table if hesitant. (A cold, smooth surface is preferable.) Secondly, clear the mind of all positive thoughts & concentrate on the powerlessness & despair of the present. Each player is given specific instructions in accordance with his/her emotional needs. It is important that the selection of tools outnumbers the players. When tools are appropriately selected & the mind desperate, each player in turn takes a tool & begins to open up their old scars. Two or more pieces of equipment may be used at the same time.
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I'm not going to do it. Please listen. I'm not going to do it. It's going to be different this time. Listen to me. Don't tell anyone. I've been wanting to cut myself open all week. Don't say anything. I've been thinking, how deep will it be this time? How much blood would spill from my throat, if my world were turned upside down? Please listen. Let me finish what I'm saying. I looked up the word blood in the dictionary. It has negative connotations. I thought of cutting circles around my nipples. Perhaps triangles across my temples. Just some small scratches. Nothing requiring newspapers & buckets. I'm not going to do it. I don't want to stain the white carpet. All the other carpets I've stood on are stained with blood. Just settle down. I'm not going to do anything stupid. I've been hugging myself tightly & sitting on my hands. I've been screaming out to no one because I'm frustrated. I'm frightened. My hands are trapped so I can't cut. But I need the drug. My own blood. I need to see the blood escaping my body. I need to say sorry, sorry, sorry. Don't speak too loud. The neighbours might hear you. Things could get nasty. Help me. I don't want anyone to know about this. I'm still here. Don't start screaming. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do it. I'll kill myself if you ring the police. Don't tell anyone. Please. Let me finish what I'm saying. It's going to be different this time.
Rules Of The Game - A participant may draw blood from any part of the body, provided the implement used is no longer than the length extending from the base of the neck to the tip of the forearm. 2. No person may correspond or make contact with an outside party, until a significant amount of blood has been lost in accordance with the injury. 3. Note: It is important that the vulnerable state of mind corresponds with the working of tools upon sensitive areas of the body. (Important points may be lost for deafness or blindness resulting from the injury.)
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Screaming within the opposite room of those playing the game, the girl is terrorised. She has lost too much blood already. She is too far from any known or trusted form of help & her brain suffocates -
This is what she thinks, although the blood from her forearms has not yet filled the sink. It never seems much from an outside perspective, but inside her mind she has destroyed the world, many times over -
If only she could find a key to unlock the terror from her insides, but she is too afraid to show the world the rottenness inside her. She has never wanted to play the game the world has shown her -
She has tried to tell of everything, but there has been no one to understand, to listen. Anything she has needed to express, has instead been left to smoulder & strengthen within her -
She is deeply frightened of losing control, every time the razor cuts deeper. It may seem to another that she has lost control already, but she is dealing with controlled anger -
Rules On Scoring - 1. If extent of injury is noticed by members of family or friends, points will be lost. If injury is noticed by outside acquaintances or figures of authority, the player will be disqualified. (No points will be given for the injury.) 2. Depth of cut should be minimal in comparison with the maximum amount of blood being released. Razor blades are more than adequate in relation to this purpose. Warning: Do not hit the area of skin fast & too deeply as skin may tear open lengthwise & may need stitching. (Persons requiring hospital attention will be disqualified.) 3. Note: Important points will be gained if semi consciousness is reached within the first thirty minutes of play, no more, no less. (If the player begins to scream for Mama during this time, all points will be lost. A disqualification from further games will result.)
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My best friend was taken to hospital again last night. I didn't go with her this time. I suppose she'll miss the company but I can't help that. I feel kind of guilty for not being with her - but I just haven't got the
She said that she wants to bathe in her own blood. That somehow she feels closer to herself in that way. She has always been different. She used to light fires in her bedroom, in the waste paper basket. She made her mother upset. I told her that she was selfish, but then again it was I who
Sometimes it makes me angry to know. Perhaps she will just die one day & be done with it. I've actually talked to her about her own ending. But suicide doesn't interest her. Only the sight of her own blood. Blood belongs most certainly inside the body. I can never understand why
I try to talk to her. I say you'll be scarred for life. I say don't hurt yourself, you're worth more than that. I'm afraid that one day she might cut her face. She's pretty you know. It makes me frightened to think about it. I just can't seem to
Ending The Game - Note: Death is not the end result of the game. Players succumbing to states of coma, catatonia, epilepsy, shock & similar mind frames will be disqualified. If all players are rendered unconscious by their efforts points will be gained. If such a time occurs when all participants have scored equally well, a tied game will result. In such an instance, notable figures of authority will inevitably be called upon to take necessary steps in ending the game.
